No Answers

The pain won't go away
and I don't know what to do with it
because I have no right to feel this 
There are real things going on 
Things bigger than me

     and my pain 
     and my emptiness 
I wanted to reach back and find 
that it wasn't all bad 
I wanted to be nostalgic 
and smile for a moment 
but everyone has vanished 
And understand I understand this:
No one owes me anything 
But it fucking hurts to be ignored 
Is it because I'm weird?
Is it because I've been here before? 
It doesn't really matter; 

It hurts.
No answers 
Wondering what I did again
The questions nagging me from the pit of my stomach 
where I stuffed them
because I don't know what to do with them
All of the things I want to say are incomplete 
These things are never up to me