I'm Blogging This

The pain won't go away and I don't know what to do with it because I have no right to feel this  There are real things going on  Things bigger than me      and my pain       and my emptiness  I wanted to reach back and find  that it wasn't all bad  I wanted to be nostalgic  and smile for a moment  but everyone has vanished  And understand I understand this: No one owes me anything  But it fucking hurts to be ignored  Is it because I'm weird? Is it because I've been here before?  It doesn't really matter;  It hurts. No answers  Wondering what I did again The questions nagging me from the pit of my stomach  where I stuffed them because I don't know what to do with them All of the things I want to say are incomplete  These things are never up to me